Showing posts with label food. Show all posts
Showing posts with label food. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Struggles

This weightloss journey hasn't been an easy one I must say. I never thought it would be easy I guess, but I have to admit that there are times when I just get frustrated.  I've been at a pretty stagnant weight for a year now.  I'm sure that part of this is due to the fact that I hit times of frustration and choose to just eat pretty much whatever.  These are the thoughts I have sometimes...  "I'm just sick of trying so hard and getting nowhere (or what feels like nowhere anyway)."  "They don't keep track of their food intake, they don't exercise."  "This sucks and life should be more fun and not suck so bad."  "Why am I putting myself through all of this...why don't I just enjoy more?"   These among others are what I get to thinking.  I'm kind of there again.  It seems that I know how to maintain really well.  But truth is, I'm not at a healthy weight right now and I need to lose again.  So am I getting in too many calories or am I not exercising enough.  I have not figured out the magic formula for myself.  I will be honest that I really don't want to give up everything.  I think things can be enjoyed in moderation and that it's the safest way.  If I totally deny myself, I think I'd end up overeating and binging on it later.  So...I'm going to keep tracking with the Lose-It application.  I'm going to try staying under the 1324 calorie budget.  I want to work on increasing exercise, getting back to the gym because summer is over and I pay $95 per month for it.  I'm going to start water aerobics twice a week, and work in other cardio and strength as well.  I get really hungry from working out.  So I also gotta work on healthy and filling snacks too.  Right now I feel such a lack of energy. Why?  I think it has to do with my husband losing his job and feeling the affects of the reduced income.  We were scraping by when both of us were working.  Now, I'm just a little stressed and scared.  I'm in the middle of this storm and I know this will pass.  I know I'm not given anything more than what I can handle and I know that I will be stronger when the storm has passed.  It's just a difficult time right now.  But I'm really trying to put up a good fight.

More later,
Dottie♥

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Happy Saturday

I really like to blog when I have something on my mind; but it would appear that I really lack in creativity when it comes to creating a title for the entry.  I figure the H4H - Day whatever has to be boring the crap out of everyone.  I also figure that reading whatever I eat may be boring the crap out of some. But, there also might be at least one person out there who appreciates me writing this down; other than me that is.

Today is Saturday, 9/11 and of course its a day that has become a day no American will ever forget. On this day we remember the tragedy that struck and take a moment of silence for those that were taken on that day as well as their families.  It seems hard to believe its been 9 years already.  I remember where I was at that moment.  I suppose its much like my grandparents remember where they were during the attacks on Pearl Harbor or my mom remembering where she was when Kennedy was shot.  Sad things happen and it is unfortunate. I just hope that our country can grow and learn.  To those affected by times of sadness - I wish you peace and comfort.

I have had a great day so far spending time with my family and my kids' guy friends.  We've been playing a game they call Freeze, which is basically acting out different scenes.  The one sitting out decides when to call "freeze" then they jump in and take the place of someone and chooses how the skit will continue.  It was the first time I played and it was really quite fun. 

Food wise, I'm doing fine.  I have had some treats, but really very limited amounts - not even full servings sizes.  If there's one thing that is certainly different about me its that I'm very conscious of what I'm putting in my mouth.  I'm also exercising!

This week on Wednesday, I walked 2.3 miles in approx. 45 minutes.  On Thursday, I went for a bike ride. I was shooting for 10 miles, but darkness creeped up on me rather quickly and I only did 7.  Today has been raining and the only exercise I've done is walking around the store and playing with the kids.  It's movement. 

I'm about to enjoy dinner - homemade lasagne made by my husband. He's the cook of the family.  I'll have a small piece and possibly a very small sliver of garlic bread.  On the side, some saute`d red bell peppers and mushrooms.  Sounds like a lot so I'm not sure how much I'll get through; especially being pasta.  I can't eat too much of that without feeling extremely and sometimes overly full.

The other day I battled the chocolate demon as I called it.  That day I won.  Today, I wasn't craving anything chocolate but I chose to eat about 5 or 6 peanut M&M's.  The difference between today and the other day...I felt way more in control today.  The other day had I given in, I'm quite certain I would've gone overboard. 

I'm so grateful I'm finally feeling in control of my eating and my exercise. 

I hope your weekend is going well. 

♥ Dottie

P.S. I've decided to create a separate page for the Food Diary.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Busy Busy Busy

My last post was Tuesday.  Today it's Sunday!!  I'm feeling like a broken record by wondering where the time goes.  However, I must say that I've been enjoying life so I'm good.  I had Friday off from work and I spent the day with my two lovely daughters doing some shopping.  We went to the mall, which I typically do not do.  I am doing a lot more because of the weight I've lost and not being lazy anymore.  I truly believe my kids are appreciating it!  I know I am.  At times I get a little down wishing I would've focused on this weight loss effort with this much dedication a long time ago when my kids were young, but I'm realizing that feeling sorry for what was doesn't do me any good. So now, I shall focus on the present and enjoy every minute of it. 

RIP Dusty Rhoaders 9/4/10
We did have some sadness this weekend.  Yesterday, we had to put one of our dogs to sleep.  He was old and was in pain, nearly deaf and just about completely blind.  He was our boy Dusty.  About 4 years ago, he came to live with us because my sister in law could not have him where she moved.  He's been living out his retirement at our house.  We love him SO much and cried having to go through it.  My youngest daughter took it pretty rough.  She claimed him as her baby.  Here is a picture of him taken yesterday.  We will miss you Dusty.

Moving on...
I've come to realize that with food, I can stay on a pretty normal schedule during the work week (when I'm actually working).  But my days off...not so much.  I tend to not eat at all half the time.  I get up in the morning and begin the day - keeping busy and forgetting to eat!  I have to do better with that.  I have however improved with getting the water in. 

I got a new toy that will hopefully allow me to vlog a lot easier.  It's a Flip Video UltraHD Video Recorder.  It will record up to two hours of video.  It comes with the FlipShare software.  I've played some with it already and it seems pretty cool.  I have yet to post something to YouTube though.

With regard to food and what I've been eating.  I've been recording it my little notebook, but I'm not sure I want to keep posting it here?  I honestly am not sure if anyone is reading this stuff or not.  Oh...I just don't know.  But while I'm here, I might as well share what I've been consuming over the last few days.

Wednesday - 9/1/10
Breakfast - 1/4 cup Oatmeal with brown sugar and raisins, half pint of skim milk
Missed lunch
Snack - 1/4 cup honey roasted peanuts
After work snack - 8 sundried tomato Wheat Thins with roasted garlic hummus
Dinner - 1 turkey salisbury steak patty, 1/4 cup mashed potato with gravy
Late Snack - 1 Jello Pudding Cup (chocolate vanilla flavored)

Thursday - 9/2/10
- Hummus with Pita Points
- Dannon Fruit on the Bottom Mixed Berry Yogurt
- 2 Little Caesar ICB bread sticks
- 2 oz. of Chicken Breast
- 1 Chocolate/Vanilla Jello Pudding Cup

Friday - 9/3/10
Went to the mall with the kids and ate at the food court. I had 1/2 Mozzarella & Tomato with Pesto Panini on Ciabatta.  Not bad.

1 Turkey Salisbury Steak Patty with 1/2 cup mashed potato/gravy.

4 Pita Chips with Garlic Hummus

Saturday - 9/4/10
Today I went to brunch with the girls to a restaurant called Arnies.  I had a 1/2 Scandanavian Shuffle wrap which consisted of Turkey, lettuce, tomato, Danish Cheese, Onion, Cucumber Dressing.

We later went to the races - a small oval track in Kalamazoo Michigan.  I had a few Crinkle Cut Fries with ketchup.

Rotisserie Chicken salad on a slice of bread topped with 1 slice of swiss cheese and a little mustard.

Late snack - Frozen Jello Pudding Cup (Chocolate)

Sunday - 9/5/10
No schedule here again.

1- 100 calorie pack of cubed Cheddar Cheese

Small Burger with 1/2 slice swiss cheese, topped with Avocado slice, Tomato, onion, lite mayonnaise on a Aunt Millie Slimwich bun. 

That Aunt Millie Slimwich bun was something new for me.  I eat very little bread these days.  These buns are nice and thin and only 90 calories.  I took a picture to share with you.

Tomorrow is Labor Day and I hope that you enjoy your families and friends. 

Until next time, keep on keepin' on!

♥ Dottie

Monday, August 30, 2010

Hot 4 Halloween - Day 30

It's Monday already.  The work day went so fast...busy as usual.  My Monday was just fine though.  I don't go in to work with that typical Monday attitude that so many seem to have.  Monday is another day just like the rest. Sure, it's the beginning of the week, sure it might be busy, but go in with the right attitude and your day is not going to suck that bad.  It's what you make it.  You are in control.  Seriously...  How you feel is up to you.  I never thought it before, but I'm telling you...it's true what they say. 

My food so far:
Breakfast - slipped right on by...I forgot to eat.
Lunch - Hummus with 8 small pita points.
Snack - Dannon Wildberry Yogurt
Snack - 1/4 cup Honey Roasted Peanuts

After work, I had one 100 calorie pack of cheese cubes.

Later, I had a salmon patty with a slice of swiss cheese and some mustard, with 1 tbsp mac & cheese on the side.  I actually only ate about 3/4 of the salmon patty.

And I had a Cherry flavored Icee.  Icee's seem to be my new "treat".  Sure they have calories and some sugar, but I think they're still a better choice that some of the things from my past.  And, I generally have about 12 oz...or so.  It varies.

Keep on keepin' on!!
♥ Dottie

Hot 4 Halloween - Days 26-29

How does this happen?  I get 4 days behind in my blog in the blink of an eye. Why must time go so fast? Seriously.  I would like to request that it slow down a bit. Everyone - please quit wishing it were Friday and just enjoy each day...cherish it. 

Day 26 - Thursday 8/26/10
Breakfast - 1 cup of oatmeal sweetened with brown sugar and raisins, 1/2 pint of skim milk
Lunch - Hummus with 8 small pita points (wedges)...SO GOOD!
Snack - Container of Dannon Wildberry Yogurt
Dinner - My husband and I enjoyed dinner out at a local restaurant called Hibachi Grill.  My plate included 2 dumplings, a piece of baked fish, a few pieces of bourbon chicken, 2 crab cheese rangoon and a little broccoli.  But I didn't eat all of it.
Late Snack - 1 string cheese

Water throughout the day.

Day 27 - Friday 8/27/10
I had to travel to an off site training class today (Windows 7).  I believe my choices were fine.
Breakfast - 3 slices lean deli Black Forest Ham, 2 oz. medium cheddar cheese
Snack - .75 oz. Peanuts
Lunch - 1/2 Turkey and Cheese with lettuce, mayo/mustard on whole wheat.
Snack - .75 oz. Peanuts (the other half of package)
We had our first home football game and there I had 1 hot dog with ketchup, pickle, onion and mustard. I also sipped a PowerAde while we were watching the game.
Later that night, I had a small chef salad...I didn't eat all of it.

Day 28 - Saturday 8/28/10
The weekend and I have no schedule to my eating and as a matter of fact, I definitely didn't eat enough.  I worked on cleaning and keeping busy.  My food included:
1 piece of Little Caesar's Italian Cheese Bread
Hibachi Grill for dinner with the kids and extended kids.  Again, I didn't finish my plate. 

Day 29 - Sunday 8/29/10
1 small Dannon Greek Yogurt - Honey flavor
1 ice pop
2 oz. Rotisserie Chicken Breast with 1 tbsp of macaroni & cheese.
Late snack - Icee (Frozen Raspberry Lemonade).

My exercise for these days were mostly household activities - like cleaning windows, cleaning up after the dogs, up and down stairs doing laundry, cleaned out my closet and filled two bags (3rd in progress) of my former fat clothes that I'll be donating.  I was very busy.  Plus, the football game Friday night - got some walking in there. 

Something worked, because I got on the scale Sunday morning and weighed 275 lbs which is 5.5 lbs down from last week!! 

Oh and I did my NGU challenge activity on Sunday.  25 Burpees for time was a killer.  I'd never even heard of a burpee before (at least not that kind).  If you want to see some hard work placed on my still big body...check it out here.  You've been warned.  It isn't pretty, but I did it and that's what matters to me!  I am kickin' fat's butt!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Hot 4 Halloween - Day 24-25

Oh my gosh!  I've been a busy little girl here.  I just posted my H4H update video.  If you have interest in seeing that, it can be found HERE.

Tuesday - 8/24
Breakfast - 1 cup oatmeal with 1/2 pint skim milk..sweetened with 1 tbsp brown sugar and raisins.

Lunch - Chef Salad with a little Bleu Cheese and French Dressing - about a tbsp of each if that.  This salad was rather large and I didn't finish it.  I'd say I ate about a cup and a half of it maybe. 

Dinner - 1 Slice of pizza - toppings included ham, sausage, mushroom, fresh garlic and onion.

Snack - Skinny Cow Mint Ice Cream Sandwich.  This wasn't too bad. I hear it's popular with the Weight Watcher crowd.  However, I'll have to admit that since my surgery, ice cream and shakes and anything like that are just too tough for me to enjoy.  Four weeks on Carnation Instant Breakfast...kills any passion I once had for ice cream/shakes.  That's probably a good thing! :)

My Exercise for Tuesday was mainly walking the stores while shopping for paint and supplies so my daughter and her best friend could redecorate her room to her liking.  I've been told I'm a pretty cool mom for letting my 15 year old and her best guy friend loose with the walls of her room as their canvas!  The way I see it -- it's her room and she should be able to express her character!

Wednesday - 8/25
Breakfast - 1 cup oatmeal sweetened with brown sugar and raisins.  (I seem to stick with this for the most part don't I).

Lunch - 1/2 wrap (spinach flavor) with turkey, grilled peppers & onions, 1/2 slice swiss cheese, a tsp of cheddar sauce on the side.

Snack - Palm full of Kars Trail Mix.  12 oz. Shaken Green Tea from Starbucks of which I only drank half.  I did not get this sweetened at all (proud of myself for that).  It wasn't completely horrible, but for someone that never liked plain old tea to begin with...not my favorite.  I probably would've liked it sweetened, but then does it still offer the healthy benefits?  IDK.

Dinner - Picked up a small Grilled Chicken Quesadilla from one of the local mexican restaurants that cooks authentic mexican food.  I had to believe it was the real deal, when I saw that girl hand rolling the tortillas.  That's gotta be a lot of work, but the flavor result for me...YUM!  Thank you lady. The quesadilla was about 8 inch round maybe, cut into 4 triangles and contained onions, peppers, avocado, cheese and a bit of sour cream. I did not finish this - eating approx. 1/2 and then a few hours later, another quarter of it as a snack.

Late Snack - Frozen raspberry lemonade - about 6 oz.

Again, my Exercise was in the form of shopping for school supplies with my daughter.  A couple hours of walking.  You know, I really enjoy that I can walk all over these big box stores and not get winded - even after a few hours.  That my friend is real progress from where I started.

Now, I must hurry and get ready for work.

♥ Dottie

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Hot 4 Halloween - Day 21-22-23

Goodness, it was an extremely busy weekend!  This update will cover 3 days.  I wonder if anyone is following me here or reading any of this?  Sometimes I wonder.  I shall just get to the food and exercise...

FOOD

Saturday 8/21 - My husband's birthday.
- 1 cup low sugar Weight Control Oatmeal (Maple & Brown Sugar flavor)
- Dannon Greek Yogurt (Vanilla)
- 2" ham, swiss, lettuce, tomato with mustard sub.
- 1 String Cheese
- For hubby's birthday, we did go to the movies and I had about 2 cups popcorn and a few sips of the Sprite.

Sunday - 8/22
- Dannon Greek Yogurt (Strawberry)
- Out for brunch...1/2 veggie omelet, 1 slice muffin bread toast with Cherry Jelly
- 4 honey wheat pretzel rods
- 1 Strawberry
- 1 Baby Carrot
- 4 oz. New York Strip Steak and 1 tbsp mashed potato
- Frozen Raspberry Lemonade

Monday - 8/23
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs with cubed ham, tomato, onion, green pepper with 1/2 slice bacon
Lunch - Hummus with small pita cut into 8 wedges
Snack - Dannon Mixed Berry Yogurt
Dinner - Had Chinese for dinner - 3 dumplings, 2 crab rangoons, 6 small pieces sweet & sour chicken.

EXERCISE
Honestly, with how busy the weekend was, I didn't do any cardio.  I did manage to do some strength activities - basically sitting on my exercise ball while curling the dumb bells, etc.

As you can see, the weekends do not generally follow any type of schedule for eating.  I always try to make healthy choices, but I do splurge a little now and then (chinese for dinner).  But I generally limit the servings on those splurges. 

My H4H Video update should be done tomorrow night. 

Til next time,

♥ Dottie

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Hot 4 Halloween - Day 20

Posting on Saturday for yesterday.  I worked until 6 p.m. yesterday, came home to the yard sale still going on.  It's been busy!  This morning it's raining so all of the stuff is still covered with tarps. Rain should clear up soon.  Yesterday was one of those ho hum days...lacked some motivation to even go to work. Maybe it was a Friday thing?  Who knows.

THE FOOD
Breakfast - Scrambled eggs with ham, mushroom, onion and cheddar cheese. 1-1/2 slice bacon.
Citrus Green Tea

Lunch - 1/2 wrap (Spinach flavored) with Turkey, Swiss, Tomato, Onion, Black Olive, Pickle and Pesto Mayo

Snack - 1/4 cup Honey Roasted Peanuts
After Work Snack - 1 String Cheese

Dinner - 2 oz. Steak, 1 egg

Snack - Small Ice Pop

Sipped on Water and Gatorade today. 

EXERCISE
Again, no formal exercise.  Having the yard sale with so many people and lots to do has thrown me off a bit.  When I did finally settle after we closed for the evening, I did sit on the exercise ball while I watched TV and did some lifting of the dumbbells.  But I don't know if that really counts...  I suppose it's better than just sitting on the couch vegging and doing absolutely nothing.  It's a productive way to watch TV - yeah that's it!

Til later tonight or perhaps tomorrow morning...I bid you well. Make smart choices!

♥ Dottie

P.S.  Today is my husband's birthday!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Hot for Halloween - Day 19

Thursday...another day at work.  Today was fine at work although lately I'm feeling like I should not only get paid more, but I want to explore more.  I currently support many of the Microsoft products with much of the focus on Outlook because email seems to be quite important to many.  The way our company sets up the storage for PST files (like the archive folders) has caused numerous nightmare situations.  I was getting to the point of being utterly SICK of Outlook and especially archives.  Our company chooses to store the PST on a network drive so that it can be restored should something happen to the file. Microsoft recommendation is to store the files locally on the hard drive and that's what they support.  So, needless to say I've had to muddle my way through some tough situations at times with this stupid PST nightmare.  There may be relief in site however. Exchange 2010 will host archives at the server level!  I'm looking forward to it.  Today, I took a break away from Outlook and launched SharePoint Designer and began to play; err... learn.  The day flew by and before I knew it, it was time to leave.  This evening has been spent getting ready for a yard sale that we are having tomorrow and Friday.  I'll be honest, I can't stand doing them...I just pretty much donate my yard to friends. It's almost like a flea market - ha ha!  We've been busy though getting tables set up and pricing stuff that we are putting in, etc.  Enough about my awfully exciting day...move on to the food and exercise.

FOOD INTAKE
Breakfast - 1 cup oatmeal with 1 tbsp. raisins and a tbsp brown sugar. 1/2 pint skim milk
Lunch - 1 cup Potato Garlic soup topped with 1 tbsp shredded cheddar cheese.
Snack - 1 string cheese, palm full of trail mix.
Dinner - 4 chicken fries, 1 tbs. mashed potatoes and 4 small crab wontons.

I know dinner was just a hodge podge...basically I picked of my families plates.

Now for the not so good part -

EXERCISE
I didn't do any today.  With how busy we've been setting up for the yard sale, just didn't find the time.  Plus, I'll be honest...my feet are still burning with pain from my 3.4 mile walk yesterday.  My poor tootsies!

And there you have it... Thursday in a nutshell.

Until tomorrow - keep on keepin' on!

♥ Dottie

Hot for Halloween - Day 18

It was Wednesday - hump day as some call it. The middle of the week (2 days down and 2 to go  until we are upon another weekend).  My day was great.  Worked as usual and as usual, that was okay.  After work, I came home, had a quick snack and headed out for a walk.  My goal was to try doing a 5K (just over 3 miles) and guess what!  I did it.  And, considering it was my first 5K EVER, I think I did pretty darn good on my time too.  I seriously had no idea how long it would take me, but and hour and 13 minutes...YES! I think that's just awesome and quite amazing too.  I struggled to walk a mile back in June.  The exercise is paying off because I am feeling stronger!

MY FOOD TODAY:
Breakfast - scrambled eggs with vegs and 2 slices bacon.
Lemonade flavored Vitamin Water Zero

Lunch - 5" wrap made with spinach flavored tortilla with chicken breast, spinach/artichoke, 1 slice swiss, mushrooms and red onion.

Snack - 1/4 cup honey roasted peanuts

After work Snack - 1 string cheese

Dinner - 1 Salmon patty with a slice of cheese melted on top.  1 tbsp mash potato with 1 tsp. mushroom gravy.

Enjoyed some Gatorade after my walk.

EXERCISE:
My Walk - 5K - 3.4 miles in 1 hour and 13 minutes.  I burned 511 calories today!  By the way this is an app available on my Samsung Moment phone.  It's called Cardio Trainer and it was free through the Marketplace.  I like it.

Until next time,
♥ Dottie

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Hot for Halloween - Day 17

Hello friends. I hope this finds you all doing well in your journeys. Today was another fine day. The weather has actually cooled off...definitely not as humid and we've been able to open up the windows and enjoy some fresh air. With all the humidity we'd been having, air conditioning was a must. Today it was in the upper 70's and this evening, I'm guessing it's in the 50's. I was actually a bit chilly. I've noticed with all the weight that I've lost so far, I'm a lot more sensitive to the temperature. I actually get chilly now. Before at nearly 400 lbs., I was my own jacket, blanket, etc. I went all winter last year wearing simply a sweater in place of a jacket. I didn't have one that fit and didn't go out much anyway. This year will be different. I'll need to buy a jacket for sure.


My food today was fine as well. I did have a little treat (1 chocolate chip cookie). I think we need to allow ourselves a treat now and then. I only had one cookie, it tasted good and that was that. I don't feel guilty or anything.

FOOD FOR THE DAY:

Breakfast - Scrambled eggs with chopped ham, scallions, mushrooms, and swiss cheese...topped with a little fresh salsa. 1 Slice Bacon

Snack - 1 Chocolate Chip Cookie

Lunch - 1/2 (5") wrap made with a tomato flavored tortilla, deli turkey, roasted vegetables, 1 slice smoked gouda and a bit of pesto mayo.

Snack - 2 dill pickle spears
After Work Snack - 1 String Cheese

Dinner - 2 oz. Jennie-O Roast Turkey Breast and 2 tbsp mash potatoes topped with gravy from the Turkey.

Snack - Icee (Frozen lemonade)

EXERCISE:
I went for my bike ride! Today I rode 8.4 miles which is an improvement from my last ride which was 7 miles. There were parts of the ride that were quite tough for me...it's amazing how those small little hills you drive over with a car suddenly seem so huge on a bicycle. I completed the ride in just over an hour! I'm getting closer and closer to my goal of riding 10 miles by the end of September. I try to up the distance with each ride. I really feel good about my accomplishments thus far!

Make it a good day. Keep on keepin' on,

♥ Dottie

Hot for Halloween - Day 16

Again, a day late on my blog update. This update is for August 16. Here we go.

Monday – Day #16…what can you say about a Monday? Monday, like any other day is whatever you make of it. My Monday was just fine. I woke up and went to work. Got home, had a snack and then had to go work at the high school until 9 p.m. I volunteer selling Scrip (a fundraiser for our band program). I have two daughters in band. I enjoy helping out…it puts my computer skills to work for the good of the program. I got home around 9:30 p.m. and had a quick bite for dinner. I know that’s pretty late, but that’s just the way Monday’s are. No exercise today. I believe Monday will probably be the one day that I don’t exercise because of how full the day is…unless I happen to wake up nice and early and get in a morning workout. But the chance of that is pretty slim because I’m just not much of a morning person. After dinner, I recorded my Hot 4 Halloween Week 2 update vlog and posted it to You Tube. I spent some time watching a few videos as well. I really need to stay focused to keep on top of these videos. I hope not to miss any. I’m thoroughly enjoying them though and getting some great ideas for various workouts. I’m meeting some great people. I can’t tell you how wonderful it is to come across so many with similar goals; People that won’t judge me negatively or make fun. That means so much. I’ve also been posting some videos of me doing exercise challenges. This vlogging has really been helping improve my self confidence I must say. Last year, there is absolutely no way I would’ve done any of this and posted it online for all to see. I love the people I’m meeting and if you are reading this, I thank YOU for your kindnesses and support.

FOOD:
Breakfast – 1 cup oatmeal with ½ pint of skim milk
Lunch – 5 inch wrap made with Tomato tortilla, chicken, ham, swiss cheese, tomato, onion and honey mustard
Snack – ¼ cup honey roasted peanuts.
After work snack – 7 tortilla chips each dipped in some onion, onion dip (made with Tastefully Simple’s Onion Onion spice blend and sour cream)
Dinner – Shrimp Egg Foo Yung about a tbsp with a tbsp white rice, 3 dumplings and 2 crab cheese rangoons. Water – about 55 oz. Better than usual, but still room for improvement.

EXERCISE: None today. Keep on keepin’ on!!

♥ Dottie

Sunday, February 15, 2009

This Sucks!

I'm about to start week 4 of this program and normally I do well. I've been doing well, but I tell you right now I'm craving some real food! The eggs cooking this morning smelled so good. The grilled cheese sandwich my daughter just made for her lunch smelled so good! I am feeling particularly weak at the moment. I gotta get over this. I think in my head that maybe I should just have a little of something real so that the craving will go away because if I don't, the fear is that I'll over indulge and get myself in bigger trouble. Why does losing weight have to be so difficult? And why, instead of looking at this as a positive change, I look at it as being in food prison. I guess if there is anything that I'm learning right now..it's that I love food! At least I'm not craving junk food. I'd love some chicken or fish or turkey. The thing is, I'm not really hungry right now. I'm just craving some real food. I can't believe I have like 12 more weeks or so to go of this. Am I doubting my strength? A little. I lost 13 lbs. in the first two weeks and I'm thrilled with that for sure. I do want this to work. I do want to lose more weight. I just wish I had some real food choices. But I gotta wait another 12 weeks or so for that.

Ugh!